My eyes were burning from crying all night and not being able to sleep. About 89 kids were murdered by a sick and awful human being. This was the most sleep I have gone without. I stayed up all night with my mind pounding, and a conscious voice screaming at me saying it's my fault. Why.. why her and not me. She deserved so much better, I'm sorry for being such a failure. My phone line rang and undulated violently on my hook. I grab the phone as my voice raspy from no sleep and crying like a screaming infant.

“Hello?”